There’s two sides to each coin. Isn’t that how the saying goes? Well I really feel that resonating through me at the moment. Like, big time.
I have had a couple of weeks “off work”, or rather away from the blog and writing, I’ve still been around on social media, but I’ve been letting my buffer network (which schedules stuff if you didn’t know) take care of a lot of that. The main reason being that I felt I needed a break from work, and I think the kids felt it too. I’ve been so wrapped up in work, so desperate to take this new venture to the next level and so STRESSED about everything that I have struggled to switch off, struggled to feel passion for anything other than coffee and bed. My decision was really made when Reuben turned around and said “Mummy, if we’re on holiday, can you be on holiday too and not be at your desk? Can you play with us?”. Urgh that sucked. We had a talk about how it works to be a grown up, working equals money, equals nice things and food etc, but everyone deserves a holiday sometimes am I right?
So, holiday. Awesome. We have had a blast in each other’s company, I’ve loved not working, not feeling the deadline pressure, the angst… But now it’s all over.
Hmm.
This is where I go back to my opening gambit, the two sides thing. I feel really conflicted about the end of our holiday. A part of me is itching to get back to normality, to start over and really encourage the blog to grow, reach more people and get back into it… Another part of me thinks that I feel this way because I want to rip of the metaphorical plaster and get on with it. I don’t want to go back to normality. I don’t want Adam to go back to work, I don’t want the kids to go back to school, and I definitely don’t want to get up and rush about for the school run. Hell no.
Does anyone else feel this way? Just, meh.
I’m totally conflicted, so do I have a pity party in the tub with bubbles and wine or should I be hanging out the bunting and praising the return of normal life?
Either way, roll on the weekend… and February so I don’t have to put up with these January blues!
H x
